Monday, October 28, 2013

It's Been TOO Long

It strange how life can change or not.  Since December there have been things in my life that have really affected me.  At the same time though, things are about the same as they were a year ago.

Some highlights....
My mom was diagnosed with Lung Cancer and ended up having a lobe of her lung removed and then had chemo treatments.  It was hard to not be together for the holidays, but we had a fun celebration when she was done with it all. 

Ok, maybe that was the only thing?  Everything else seems pretty normal, as normal as anything can be.  We ended a school year and have since started the next.  #1 is now in 4th grade and is a great reader and having a good time there.  #2 is now in 2nd grade and is getting better at reading and doing really well in math.  #3 has started Kindergarten and has now started reading and bringing home books to read.  She is so excited to read.  It's really fun.  #4 is in pre-school still and enjoys going.  He gets to ride the bus and he likes that.  He is also getting really good at identifying letters and getting the sounds.  With #5 I have put him in a "Joy School" of sorts.  There are 6 of us that are rotating months having the children in our homes.  He is liking it, although I still wonder sometimes if it's even worth it.  He's only 3!  #6 gets to spend a lot of time with mom.  Actually while #4, & #5 are at school he comes with me to the Elementary school and helping in the older boys classrooms. 

I love being able to be home with my children and also have the chance to really help in the classrooms.  As I hear about different things about schools and the lack that they have, I am glad that I can help be a support to those teachers that spend so much time with my children.  I couldn't home school my kids, but I am so glad that I can support those that know what they are doing. :)

Life is good.  I am going to try updating regularly...we'll see how that turns out.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Making it...

I need to let you know how Wed, Thurs, and Friday nights went.  Wednesday night I did really well with dinner.  We ended up going to In 'N Out.  This time all the kids ate their hamburgers...that doesn't always happen.  Mike and I were again so welcoming to the less options is more idea.  Hamburger or cheeseburger....that really is the extent of it.  I Love the simplicity.

Every year we get each of the kids their own ornaments and Wednesday night seemed to be the best night for that.  We ended up at Kohl's and each of the kids got their ornament.  We then headed to In 'N 'Out for dinner before heading to the church for Pack Meeting for scouts (Boy #1 and Dad are both involved).  After which we had tithing settlement.  (If your not familiar with Tithing Settlement I will give a little more information.  As members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (aka Mormons) we give a 10% tithing.  Once a year (at the end of the year) we meet with our Bishop (ecclesiastic Leader) to let him know if we have given a full, partial, or no tithing.  We become accountable for that Tithing.  If you have more questions you can find more at the Church's website:

So it turned into a VERY full night and a late one as well.  I think I did pretty well cooking that night. :)

Thursday night the plan was to have the Ham Fried Rice.  After Mike got home from work we were going to finish putting up lights on the house. (Side note:  This is the first time we have had lights up on the outside of our house at Christmas time.)  We found out that I was better getting up high on the ladder, so we put lights on the house and then came in once it was done.  By the time we got done it was late, dark and I had a hungry baby.  I had chopped everything earlier in the day, so that part was done.  It pretty much just had to get put together and since he is better, he did that while I fed and took care of the other kids.

We had decided that Friday we would do a Turkey dinner ourselves so that we could get some leftovers (the only downside to having it with a large crowd and everyone is in charge of something different).  I got the bird stuffed and in the oven and also rolls going.  Mike did take care of the potatoes and cutting the turkey. :)  I ate way too much, just like it was Thanksgiving all over again.   No pies this time though.  I may have to attempt another one....we'll see. 

Since it's now Sat. night I can write about tonight as well.  We ended up having pizza at my in-laws house and I didn't really have to do anything.

So, now that the week is basically over, I think it went well overall.  I feel like I've had a better attitude about making dinners and that's a nice thing for me. 

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Feeling Accomplished

I DID IT!! So, thinking more about everything, I think part of my problem is that I don't feel like I ever get anything DONE. So, even if I set a little goal to do something and I get it done, I feel much better. :)

Anyway, I got dinner made all by myself with a little help getting things on the table. I took pictures as proof. :) The table doesn't look pretty, but it's a complete meal (and that's the important part at this point). Maybe next time (tonight?) I can make it look prettier....we'll see how that goes. I'm feel accomplished just getting it done.

I should back up and tell you how it happened though. Boy #5 had his 4 mth check up and was asleep and or fairly content in the start of dinner. Boy #4 however was mad and tired. So, I got to hold him while I was working for a bit and then he fell asleep and I was able to lay him on the couch, so that was nice. The other kids were either watching "The Grinch" (old cartoon version, the best version :)), or helping put Christmas up. Then when Boy #5 was fussing the older kids helped with him. After I was done I said something to Mike about how I made dinner and he had said he was sorry he didn't help (what a GREAT man). I told him that it was ok and that I wanted to do it.

So, we had Chicken Popover which everyone pretty much likes. We had a side salad or carrot and celery sticks if you didn't want the salad.

Here's the table:

We'll see how dinner goes tonight. We are having Fried Rice and I don't do well when it comes to guess work, so Mike may have to step in there if he wants. No ad lib for me with seasonings...

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


So, I have been thinking a lot about talents lately. I always struggle to know what/if I have any and how I can be better.

I suffer from some feelings of inadequacy (I'm sure it's just like everyone else that feels that way at some point or another). So, to make matters worse, I start doing the comparisons and mental lists of all the things I can/should do better. They are long lists which is why it doesn't help. :)

So, in order to really get myself out of this crazy rut, I've got to improve something someway, somehow. Random question with all of this... If you *think* you have a talent/nack for doing something, but someone can do it better than you does that make it so it's not a talent of your own anymore? I find that I might think I can do some thing, but realize that there are others that can and do it better than I can so how can I add that to my list?

Anyway, fun ramblings here....

So, I am looking to better myself one day at a time. If you would like to join me on this crazy journey, feel free to check back, if not, don't. :)

My first may actually be by writing more on the blog, which I'm hoping will come with the other things as well. I'm not good at making dinner. My husband is wonderful and does so much to help with dinner, to the point sometimes that I feel guilty about not doing more. So, tonight, my plan is to do it ALL. We'll see how it goes and I plan to report back as to how it happens.

Welcome to Finding my Talents...if I am working on one that is one of yours, are there secrets to the trade? Please share...

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Depressed? Maybe, Maybe not..

So, I think I've been going through a couple of days that I've just been feeling down and not myself and not sure if I wanted to NOT feel depressed. So, as down as I have been feeling, I sure got something else to think about today.

How familiar are you with Well, I have made a couple of purchases on there and I have fun looking around and filling up a cart with my dreaming. So, I had been playing in my cart a couple of days ago and had the site up on the computer. Well...

This afternoon before dinner my 3 yr old and my almost 2 yr old had been looking at a video on zulily. I left them watching it multiple times... A short time later, the 2 of them left to go do something else and I looked at the computer screen. It said "Thank You". I really didn't think anything of it until after dinner and I asked my hubby to see what the screen was saying "Thank You" for. Why would a screen say "Thank You" anyway? We sure found out why. There had been a purchase made... It turns out to be a $450. purchase. Oh man was I sure dreaming in that cart. He actually added something in there as well.

As soon as we figured out what had happened, I sent them an email. I'm sure hoping we can get the order cancelled, we'll probably know tomorrow. If that doesn't work, I may list some items on here that I would like to sale. :)

So, if I was feeling bad before, this sure snapped all the self-pity out of me. I'm laughing and crying over the incident (not really much of either one, it's more shock than anything else).

You can now add this to your own lists of things that have never happened to you and things you don't EVER want to have happen to you. :)

So, enjoy that and I'll post soon with the update...

This is what sucked him in. He ended up putting 6 of them in the cart as well before making the purchase. Also to give credit where due, I saved the image from the zulily website.

ETA: What a wonderful thing... They canceled the order no problems!! I'll keep ordering from them. :)

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Motherhood Vent

I have had a few things bothering/festering me for a little while now. I'm not sure if I should let these thoughts go viral, but, I guess I've started....

I'm really having a hard time right now. I know everyone seems to have their own things and at their own times, so now seems to be mine. I'm struggling with my oldest child. He has started talking and trying to run away. He also talks back to me or is sassy in his attitude. He can be so nice to his siblings and so helpful to the family and then it's like a switch gets flipped and he's being mean and acting quite naughty.

I'm hoping that by typing this out some thoughts will come to me as to how to handle my current situation.

I thought at one point that I was doing ok as a mom, and then I have my eyes opened and I realize that I'm not really doing that good of a job.

I think I have tried to find out what's really going on, but that doesn't seem to work. I wonder if he just tells me something to placate me.... I love this child and really would like him to be able to talk to me about anything. Maybe he feels like he can't anymore, for whatever reason. I know I have a hard time trusting him because of the lies he tells. Maybe he's stopped trusting me as well?

I've wondered if the changes in the last year have something to do with it. We moved and we now have a new baby. This life sure isn't easy is it?

He is such a good helper when he wants to be. He loves holding the new baby and doing what he can to help him. He can be such a trooper with his younger siblings trying to play in the things that are a little to old for them. He can be so sweet as he comes up and just tells me that he loves me. I am so grateful for this little boy in my life, I just wish it were better more of the time and there weren't any threats of running away or not wanting to be here with me (us) anymore.

For anyone that reads this, thank you for listening to me vent and share some of the thoughts that I'm having. If you have dealt with this or have some ideas for me to try, I'm up for as well. :)

Friday, August 3, 2012

10 YEARS!!

It was 10 years ago today that I married my best friend. I am so lucky to have the life that I do and it all started with that one action 10 years ago.

I'm not a big fan of posting all over the love that I share with my family, I'm not sure why not, but it's just the way I am. As I have thought about this Anniversary, I decided to step out of my zone a little and just mention 10 highlights of my marriage.

1. I literally got to marry my best friend. There wasn't anyone I wanted to spend my time with more than Mike. I am so glad and grateful that this is the way our marriage/life together started. There are still those times occasionally when we stay up late just talking.

2. With him I have 6 beautiful children that I am so grateful to have in my life. He has been able to be to the births of each one and I've loved having him by my side through the labors and deliveries. I could have never delivered those that came without medication without him.

3. He is a very patient with me. I tend to get crazy sometimes and he is able to get me calmed down and recognize the important things.

4. He has the power of the priesthood. I am so grateful for his worthiness to hold and use this power. It has been a major blessing in my life that he has this power.

5. He continues to try and improve himself. We both know that neither one is perfect (although I think he's pretty close :)), and he continues to try to be better and to do better. I appreciate his efforts a lot.

6. He is dedicated to what he wants. He had a goal to loose some weight and he has done very well keeping it off even through my pregnancies when I really don't worry about my weight.

7. He loves me! In spite of everything he still loves me and wants to be with me forever.

8. He provides for us. I am grateful to him for wanting to provide and care for his family. In a time of entitlement he is one that will do anything and everything in his power to provide for his family and to help keep us comfortable.

9. Going along with the last one...he enjoys his job. I'm so grateful for his job. I'm amazed sometimes that he even got it with all the politicking that goes one.

10. He enjoys the time that gets spent with the Hansen Family. I hear horror stories about families and in-laws and I am very grateful for the connectivity that we have with both families.

These are in no particular order, just different thoughts that I have.
Ain't no need to watch where I'm going, just need to know where I've been.