I have had a few things bothering/festering me for a little while now. I'm not sure if I should let these thoughts go viral, but, I guess I've started....
I'm really having a hard time right now. I know everyone seems to have their own things and at their own times, so now seems to be mine. I'm struggling with my oldest child. He has started talking and trying to run away. He also talks back to me or is sassy in his attitude. He can be so nice to his siblings and so helpful to the family and then it's like a switch gets flipped and he's being mean and acting quite naughty.
I'm hoping that by typing this out some thoughts will come to me as to how to handle my current situation.
I thought at one point that I was doing ok as a mom, and then I have my eyes opened and I realize that I'm not really doing that good of a job.
I think I have tried to find out what's really going on, but that doesn't seem to work. I wonder if he just tells me something to placate me.... I love this child and really would like him to be able to talk to me about anything. Maybe he feels like he can't anymore, for whatever reason. I know I have a hard time trusting him because of the lies he tells. Maybe he's stopped trusting me as well?
I've wondered if the changes in the last year have something to do with it. We moved and we now have a new baby. This life sure isn't easy is it?
He is such a good helper when he wants to be. He loves holding the new baby and doing what he can to help him. He can be such a trooper with his younger siblings trying to play in the things that are a little to old for them. He can be so sweet as he comes up and just tells me that he loves me. I am so grateful for this little boy in my life, I just wish it were better more of the time and there weren't any threats of running away or not wanting to be here with me (us) anymore.
For anyone that reads this, thank you for listening to me vent and share some of the thoughts that I'm having. If you have dealt with this or have some ideas for me to try, I'm up for as well. :)